SANCTUM

Seek The Truth

How can anyone know for sure whether they are here or there, alive for a reason, awake, or dreaming? How can anyone know anything and be sure of anything? How can one certainly know the truth about why we are born, or why we exist, who or what has created us, and for what reason? But, our narrow senses, and our contrived imaginings catapult us headlong into illusion and ignorance.

What is this grand scheme of things? How can any of us move forward having never known what it is that we are? What is this body? What is this mind? What is this DNA, and what is this duality? People have told us many things. We have heard. We have listened. And, we have believed, foolishly, in things we have never experienced. We have trusted blindly in a reality already fabricated for us.

From the moment I was born, I have not known a single truth, except that which my instinct has whispered to my consciousness from deep within. Even then, with my mind so clouded and fragmented, hardly have I heard or understood the language of my primitive nature. I shall live; I shall go to work, make my money, play the game of social acceptance, then die. Just like everyone else. I shall die in ignorance.  

How can we be so blind? How can we stomach the darkness of it? How can we go on, suffocating, writhing, anxious…miserable?

Should it not be in everyone’s own interest, and of the most vital importance, to seek out the truth of existence, no matter the sacrifice, no matter the price or cost? Should it not be everyone’s sole endeavor to know the reality of why we are here in the earth? Should everything else not then cease, the total insanity that is social culture, everything, come to a stop, immediately…and let everyone be still, let everyone be quiet, let everyone fast, and be chaste, and drop to the ground in sheer misery of heart…in that…we know not why this is, we know not why this life is, we know not why we are. Should this not be of the most importance, above all other things: the intention to know the truth, to awaken, to realize what this human being is? 

Faith in religion, believing in God, is yet blindness. Somehow the Universe and the unseen forces have their way with us. But, what is this? Must we wait to die before we know? This little body, this little brain; how pitiable are you. 

Faith in leaders, faith in government, is yet blindness. Yet, we let them guide us. We let them enslave us. The murder of millions are on our hands. The innocent ones, soon they are corrupted. The earth, the beautiful world, suffers corruption and poison; a place so beautiful has been in a very short span of time, mutilated and polluted. Man shall suffer the loss of his world. He shall suffer the loss of his only life support.

My God, if you hear me, why must man learn such a horrible lesson? Why should any being have to suffer the lesson of this kind of misery? Should any being need this kind of understanding? A putrid lesson it is. A nightmare world has it become. Society is cruel. The little children suffer. The rich have their day. The many millions of beings starving die from thirst. In the streets, the homeless and naked breathe in the fumes of putrid society. The gasses and the chemicals are making everything and everyone sick and gross. The selfish elite press on, hoarding to themselves and amassing to themselves selfish evil beyond any evil ever known. For, the wealthy, the rich, kill the very earth and kill the very beings which they share life with. Evil, evil, evil. All of it horrible. That which was good, is good no longer, but is tainted, contaminated, made sick. God help us.

We must stop. We must stop, and listen. We must get down on our knees and pray for understanding. Believe ye’ in God? Is there a God? Get down on your knees in broken heart and see. Seek, search, with all your being to know if there is a God.

Sacred Joy

Be humble of heart, child
and take to your remembrance, God,
every moment.

Behold the sacred joy of life.
Every moment do you receive of His blessing,
every moment do you receive a divine gift.
Behold the sacred joy of God.

Keep no bitterness to your self.
Behold, every moment of your life,
divine joy, divine love, a miracle, a blessing,
every moment sacred.

Even as the Angels in heaven surround the Light of God,
singing heavenly praises of sacred, divine joy,
so must man, no less, in this darker world, sing within himself
the thankful and humble praise of divine life within himself,
and, O, to be so thankful for the presence of those whom you love.

Share that joy, therefore, with your wife, your husband, your son, your daughter,
your mother, your father, your friend. Be thankful, therefore,
and with repentant heart, with honest heart,
Embrace the sublime light of God in All. Embrace All. Love All.
Forgive All.

Slow down and be mindful
of the divine miracle of Being, of the sublime wonder of God.

God in you.
You in God.

Amen. 

Love

Love is that
which Faith proclaims.

Love is that
which God Is.

Love is that
which Truth reveals.

Love is that
which the Heart sees.

Love is that
which the Mind believes.

Love is that
which the Soul redeems
in ungodly hour,
dark, dark night.

Love is that
which alone is real,
Pure, Pure, Pure. 

See you not God?

O, foolish men,
See you not that God Is?
See you not what spell is cast upon you,
by those whose works are evil,
that you deem it well to sin,
and have no mind in God, nor of His Eternal Presence?

But, that evil which appears like good conceals the truth.
Your eyes are blinded by them that are evil,
and you are made to believe that there is no God,
and that God is questionable.

Therefore, are you led into sin, like blind children.
You see not God because you have been overwhelmed
by the spell of demons and devils.

You sin, therefore, even as your heart cries within you,
and your conscience troubles you deeply,
yet you are unaware how blind are your eyes,
or by how much you sin.

Your hearts are made filthy.
You cannot exist in the light of righteousness.
Behold. Repent. Awake. Strive.
Seek that righteousness and that truth in God.
Depart from evil.
Return to God. 

Satisfied

I tell you,
I went with sorrow and darkness,
and found myself in a nature place,
away from the noise of the world.
And, praying to God, and Christ, and The Holy Mother,
that I might have His Light enlighten me,
I was given that Light, and I was filled with peace.

I was given that vision of Christ,
as though I were with Him in His hour,
from the days of old upon the earth.
I could see how He was, how He felt, 
as He walked the earth, pure and noble in heart,
utterly loyal unto God. 

Holy, holy, holy, is that Light of God.

For, only in Him did I find peace.
Only in Him was I made satisfied.

The Light filled my heart.
The Light filled my body.
I was made whole again,
and the cares of the world left me.

Only in Him, in His grace, in His light,
are we satisfied.

Amen.

I tell you,
We cannot force that Light upon ourselves,
So gentle, so subtle is His Love.

But, in the beginning, as we seek His light,
do we struggle with the self, and with the things
that imprison our spirit.
In the beginning we are disturbed,
for we struggle against the self and its wants.
We struggle against the mind that seeks those things apart from God.

Apart from God, we are in hell. 
Unmindful of God, seeing not Him,
We continue only in misery.

Only in that consciousness of Him,
in that prayerful and peaceful place,
Are we rescued from anguish.

All is God.
Nothing exists apart from Him.
We are One in Him.
In Oneness is Wholeness, Holiness,
Divine consciousness.

Only in Him is that true and pure Love…
that peace which surpasses all understanding.

Amen. 

By What Power?

I swear only by Him,
That by Christ Jesus, By the Holy Mother,
By the Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit,
By God,
Am I saved from my self.

Only by these Holy Ones
am I shown the way, reproved of my erroneous ways,
and given the true light of direction.

I pray, Lord God, Lord Christ, Holy Mother,
Be nigh unto me always.

I give thanks. I give great thanks.
For, once my soul was in darkness,
But now do I see the light – is a true expression,
And should never be spoken of lightly, or with irreverent heart.

Give thanks. 
God is in His Holy temple.

Amen. 

Harmony

How gentle is He,
How kind,
How loving;
He who dwells within our hearts.
But, as we seek Him, does He return to us,
and the memory of Him returns to our hearts.

So subtle, so gentle a spirit,
The Light that is the Giver of All.
We are truly in union with Him, all of our days,
If we would but know Him and allow him into our hearts.

We allow Him first into our hearts,
and as we are aware of our hearts, and the Holy Spirit,
that joy in us becomes complete.

Make way, therefore,
and make clean your hearts.

And as you seek Him more and more,
does He come one day soon into your being,
into your heart, and alights upon your mind in pure grace,
pure Holiness, pure vision.

Love thy God with all your heart, with all your mind,
with all your strength, with all your soul.
But, even as you see your brother deep in sin,
love him, love him as thy self.
For, God brings life unto all.

There is no guile in Him,
No turmoil, no conflict.
He is all, and He is all that is or will ever be.
He is unity. He is serenity. He is pure love and grace.

That sacred knowledge shall come unto thee,
a remembrance of the truth, a remembrance of the beginning of all things.
Ye’ shall take great joy in this,
for in this is the peace, the rest of thy soul unto the light of God. 

Trust in Him, then.
Be not disturbed.
He shall bring all things unto thee as Ye’ are in need.

Trust. Have faith. Seek only Him. Rest in His faith.

Amen. 

Holy One

Even all the creation,

Even all the angels,

Even all the demigods who make the worlds,

And the beings who garden the worlds,

And the ignorant ones who live in the worlds,

All, all, all, exist not,

but in The Holy One.

Lord, Look Upon Me

Lord,

Why am I forced to turn from you?

If I am made to live among them, I become like them.

Did I choose this?

Lord,

I see the terrible suffering which must come to all.

It is not far off now.

It is not right that man should not know you.

It is not right that man forget you.

Shall I shed this self now, and be as your lowly prophet?

Shall I cast off this ignorant fear of self and prostrate myself before you,

and before them in the street, for all to see?

Shall I become as nothing then, a mere beggar in the street,

and be as an embarrassment to my wife, and a shame to all who know me?

I will, Lord, if that be your will.

For, I see, Lord, that all shall soon be like this in the coming days.

The day soon comes when man shall not have, nor shall his needs be met.

A great and horrible day is coming.

Men shall fall down before you,

and shall plead with all their hearts to you,

but they shall not see you,

until the bitter end.